OK, I've heard so much outcry for the ending of Mass Effect 3. I can understand that the series has been a very emotional ride. I got to see Ethan Shepard , the Paragon of humanity fight to bring order to the galaxy. But by the third game, make some hasty decisions in the face of the ultimate adversaries. I remember the rush of running down that final hill, dodging giant death beams and debris, just like I had on Rannoch. But suddenly I'm blasted and the screen goes black. My gut reaction was to wait for the retry menu to come up, but instead I'm horribly wounded and gunning down Geth. The next few parts were a little disorienting. While on the ground I can heard the radio chatter of Hammer being wiped out an no radio contact being able to be made, but Anderson has no problem patching me through, and command radios me directly after the three way between Shepard, Anderson and the Illusive man. By the time the bright light hits, I know that everything that's happening is in Shepard's head. And then the catalyst is the boy I've been dreaming about the whole game. At first I figured he was an incarnation of guilt trying to show that everyone can indeed join together and bring lasting peace. Being the peacekeeper I'd been the majority of two games I bought it and was making my way towards synthesis (Which I Found very reminiscent of Deus EX, But that's almost a whole other conversation). Then it hit me. The vision had just mentioned being the reaper creator. He was a reaper consciousness. Of course he wanted synthesis, it's what they'd been doing since the husks in ME 1. In a moment of hesitation I see Shepard turn around 360 to try and chase down the event horizon that leaves everything in flames. But I was too late the cinematic of Of me breaking into a running jump is playing, and I feel like I've made the worst choice. Naturally everything starts glows green and I'm left with a lot of unfinished questions. If all the species had sent most if not all of their population to Earth for the final battle... how the fuck do they get home with no mass relays? And why is the Normandy trying to make the jump afterwards? I personally could have done without that Relay Beam chasing the Normandy and the random planet afterwards. I don't think any stupid Eden analogy is required at this point. But Overall I liked the ending, I just didn't think I got the 'good' one. Which I blamed on the need for the multiplayer factor.
So afterwards I went to the internet, found out about the blue and red endings, and of course the indoctrination theory that seemed to support the feelings I had about my ending. Other than that ... shooting the Illusive man sure felt good.
"Two natures beat within my chest.
One is wicked, one is blessed.
One I love, one I hate.
The one I feed will dominate."